Dearest friends and supporters,
Having come back from Cambodia, a month ago already, I have been trying to put together a reflection but when I last got into it, there was an error in the system and I lost the whole thing! Perhaps God did away with that version because he wanted me to be more honest and really share what he’s put on my heart. So, what is that you ask? It is still something in the works but to borrow a sister’s words, God’s been stirring up my mud.
During the mission trip, the 10 Jubilee sisters went into it with a vague idea of what we were going to do and experience there. We knew we were going to work with some village kids, and we knew we were somehow going to be present at a Cambodian Christian Women’s Conference. We also joined a team from L.A. as they led a week long VBS at an orphanage.
I personally went to Cambodia with very little expectations, I thought. I knew it would be a good chance to get to know some great sisters as well as receive some healing ministered by Pastor Jenny Oh. I really thought God was going to use Pastor Oh to do some awesome things for us as her gift is in healing. However, halfway through the trip, we realized that God had carefully hand picked each one of us girls so that our testimonies could bring healing and revelation to each other. We very quickly broke down our carefully constructed walls as we saw each other’s burdens and brokenness. God gave us a heart of compassion for one another that allowed us to truly pray for one another and bond in such a short time. That was a miracle in and of itself!
Going back to God stirring up my mud, He really stirred up something in me when I was at the orphanage. I saw how amazingly loving the children were to complete strangers and I was left to ponder why I can’t love the same way. I found myself being uncomfortable and unable to really truly reciprocate the love they freely gave. That really bothered me. Throughout the whole trip, I felt like God kept reiterating that same theme of “love”over and over again. I truly believe that this is something that God has shown me to experience spiritual breakthroughs. Since being back, I’ve been praying and God has been burdening my heart to pray for my spiritual breakthroughs, to seek Him more earnestly than ever.
This year, God has also been prompting me with the word “worship”through many scripture passages and I have been seeing God opening new doors in my life. All the pieces of the puzzle are not fully put together but I feel that God has created me to worship Him with my musical gifts, specifically my voice. I also feel that I am to write music to worship God. Just recently, I received some prophetic words, for the first time in my life, from a Korean pastor. Of the many encouraging words I received, he prophesied that God will make my vision clear through many around me. I am in the process of claiming that prophesy through prayer and really seeking the spiritual breakthroughs that will give me freedom to live out the life God has called me to live. I wait in great expectation for what God can, and will do! Thank you all for your support and prayers!
With a grateful and humbled heart,
Jen